I pray to God for some understanding of my situation and why I am going through this, and the answer I get is "you are becoming....". In other words I am a work in progress, and even through the hard times I am becoming. But Father, I have been on this earth for 44 years and I have experienced some of this worlds worst evils only to come out on the other side stronger and learning that there is no one on this earth I would let harm my children. Father, you have blessed us with free will and I have made some choices that have had me make a left in my life instead of the right you had planned for me, but you never left me. I take responsibility for the mistakes that have taken place in my life, I don't blame you or anyone else, but when is enough going to be enough? When!! will this battle I call my life going to end? No, God I do not want to die, but I am tired of struggling and fighting for every moment, it feels as if I am constantly battling a mountain only to turn around and face another that is bigger and harder than the one before. That is when I hear that still, small voice that speaks to your heart, "I have never told you that you are to go through these battles alone. I am always here and I have put people in your life, that I have blessed with enough strength of character, that will go to battle with you if you ask them". God I know you have blessed me with some wonderful people in my life, but they have families and troubles of their own to deal with, I don't want to bother them with mine. I hear that still, small voice saying "that is why you are tired my child, you see I have never left you nor will I ever, you are one of my children and trust that the ones who I have put in your life are there for the long haul and want to help you, but you have to ask for the help". God through all of this you are telling me I am still becoming....who you have created me to be? You are closer than you think because you have:
Chosen to love. . . rather than hate.
Chosen to laugh. . . through the tears. .
Chosen to create. . . rather than destroy.
Chosen to persevere. . . rather than quit.
Chosen to praise. . . rather than gossip.
Chosen to heal. . . rather than wound.
Chosen to give. . . rather than steal.
Chosen to act. . . rather than procrastinate.
Chosen to grow. . . rather than rot.
Chosen to pray. . . rather than curse.
Chosen to live. . . rather than die.
In the name of your Son, I pray. Amen
You might ask why in the world I decided to share something so personal with you in such a public forum. The answer is simple, no matter who you pray to or how you believe, I know everyone has asked these questions at least once in their lives. But the main reason for me sharing something so personal with you is because I needed to remind myself that I am never alone. We are still becoming who we were created to be on this earth, no the journey is not easy, but when we are reminded of all the good that is in the world, it becomes worth the work.
In every smile there is beauty. In every heart there is love. In every mind there is wisdom. In every human being there is a soul, there is life, there is worth, and there is the ability to see all these things in everyone, including one’s self.~~Marc and Angel Hack Life
Peace and Blessings
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